"End of the Dream" Lyrics

AH, It’s been months now since the last conversation I had with you. I still haven’t forgotten how you replaced me, loyal to you for as long as you have known me, over someone you only met recently. I still remember the hurt and pain of your betrayal to me! I was there for you at your darkest times. When even your family forgot you I was there for you. I provided for your needs, spiritual, emotional, you name it, simply Because I truly loved you. I will admit that there were times I was not able to be there for you was not able to be there physically because of issues beyond both of us. But my heart were always with you. I waited for you and did my best to move mountains for you so you could be transferred to the place where you want to be. But it was a mistake. When you got there and life got better for you, you immediately forgotten about me. How easily you replaced and dumped me like I was just yesterday’s trash. Replaced for someone you barely know. Will they be able to do what I did for you? Are they strong enough to also wait for you? They came to your life when the sun was already shinning. And me, the person that was with you thru dark times was now but a distant memory soon to be forgotten. I wonder how you sleep at night knowing you stabbed my heart and left me bleeding at the side walk. And it’s funny how loving you keeps me bleeding but it’s these scars that remind me I’m still alive. That day you left me was also the lowest point of my life, but you were not there for me.
My Dearest Love,
I would like take this opportunity to thank you for the bittersweet memories you left me with. I hope you’re happy.. With this letter I leave all my feelings behind, I still love. I want you to know that I will never give up on you no matter how much pain and suffering you caused me. I will always love you. Goodbye my Love.
Yours,
J.C.
You can find the song here


   https://soundcloud.com/sosalvation/end-of-the-dream

Photography

I have found myself seriously fond of photography. i have been at it for some time now and I'm loving every step of the way. photography has a sense of sense about it. When you capture certain moments, you just feel you can almost live in them forever.
i love this.. anyway.. I just spent a whole night working and I have to say, Im proud of me.
later people

For my Black Rose…

I had just started working at an internet café. Not much happened there when I started, so I’d get off work early once in a while. I was trying to prove myself in the workplace and make a name for myself, so several times, I found myself wondering around town after work hours, looking for rival internet cafés, seeing what they were doing right and what I could adopt to better my own place…

Although it was said that I worked at the best café in town, I had heard of one very strong rival café that was still at par with mine. So, one Tuesday, after hours as usual, I walked in and presented myself as a customer, with the mindset of a student. I was here to learn. I was about to take a few notes from this place and take them to my own.  I opened my Facebook page and started to stare around as the café attendant did her work… She had braids that kept falling over her face, covering her reading glasses as she buried herself in whatever work she was doing. A lady’s jacket to hide whatever top she was wearing inside, a pair of jeans and Brown Levi’s covered her below the waist. She has some music playing… although it was inaudible, I felt I knew the artist…

After my session was over, I walked over to her desk, ready to make my payment. As I drew close, the song got clearer. It was ‘Shake it Off’ by Florence and the machine, off their most recent album at the time. As she processed my payment, I decided to make conversation as a way of being polite. And so I asked, “You listen to Rock Music?”. “Yeah, I do. Why do you ask?” “I listen to rock myself. What genre? Alternative, soft, you know, easy stuff. Rhetorically, I asked, so you listen to Florence and the machine? YES!!! Oh Yes I do. It’s just sad I can’t find their whole album, the new one I mean. Oh. I thought I heard you playing something from it. I was, but that was one song. I said, I have it… I can bring it in for you tomorrow………”

I remembered how we started out… and it humbled me fam. I started out as just a random kid, way below your class in whatever category you placed me in. but you took me on as someone on the same level. I really don’t know how, but your response is the kindest thing I have seen in a long time. You inspired me to reach heights I feel I wouldn’t have as soon as I did if you weren’t there to push me. That one raw friend I can’t count on for a brutally honest response, answer or review and still know I have my Nigguh within.

Dude, thanks a lot for not flipping on me when I expected you to (Like over the pictures I took and never Delivered. I am really sorry about those), for being a shoulder I could cry on when I needed to, for allowing me to be a friend close enough for you to trust with some of your most sensitive matters (for actually being able to cry in front of me!!!! Dude I’m still psyched. I felt Valid in Mwenya’s life) and a lot of other things, some subliminal that I may not entirely remember. But mostly, I want to thank you for being with me as I took up my Christian walk Seriously. I realized just how much having you and Jeremiah around meant to me as Bwalya, the growing boy, Bwalya, the Growing Christian, and even as Diamond Dice, the Little man trying to conquer the world.

I stepped out of my comfort zone and I lost it all.. Yo! Dude it’s been mad enough to make me feel lost and found, happy and sad, frustrated and alright all at the same time… I have slipped in my faith, countless times. It’s crazy fam. But I have had time to look back at where I have come from with all of this, and this has been one of the biggest landmarks in my whole Journey. Knowing Mwenya.

Fam thank you. I can’t say it enough, but thank you… thank you very much.

Back To The Blog

You know, a Lady started working at our workplace a few weeks ago. She has this thing for blogging…. The thought didn’t really get to me until I saw an episode of samurai jack today…. When I sang… back to the blog instead of back to the past… but after such a long time of not blogging, I really don’t know what I want to write about. I don’t even know if I want to write. Wait, I am writing so I do want to write. But what about… so much has happened since the last time I wrote on this platform… I don’t even know where to start from. I don’t know if I should start with my “Road to Redemption”, a personal journey to quitting smoking, maybe something less personal and talk about this New job I have as a Photographer, or this new sound I created for my music and want to try out on my next project…. I, wait… that’s it!!! I found it!!! Them if you may… so this year, I’m getting back to my blogging. I will write about my photography journey, as an Employee and from personal moments away from the office. I will write about my Road to redemption, subtitled how I quit smoking, and the New direction that my Music career is taking. A lot has happened and I want to tell about it all…. For now however, I want to use this as my official announcement that I’m coming back to those that have been kind enough to spend a few minutes of their precious time (which they are never getting back! *evil smile*) to read my deranged thoughts about this phenomenon we call life. I really appreciate you and your time, and I’m sorry I stopped writing for a while (I stopped writing for a year?) but Imma make it up. This time I’m not stopping… if you’ve been listening to jay Rox, he has this song where he talks about no stopping. I think the song is even called no stopping… The irony eh?